We have had a full and busy summer. Have way through the summer we had a triple effect of unhappy news. We received a phone call on July 12th, that my grandfather was in Hospice care and had a blood clot and that he may not make it another hour or week. As my Dad was out of town and I had been dealing with health issues. This was the last thing I wanted to hear. My loving husband immediately said lets pack and go right now to see him. Let me give a little background. I had not seen him in a really long time. He always went against what we believed as being a Christian and fought hard with all his family. So my own children had never meet their grandfather. I had only one grandfather I knew, and spent several summers and holidays with him while growing up. I loved him very much despite his choices. I took a summer vacation to spend with him when i was 16. I talked with him daily about God and the bible and his life. I even had him visit church two Sundays in a row!! When I left that summer he said Holly, don't worry about me and heaven I will be there. Now the behavior never matched but I always prayed he would still find and serve the Lord before his death. So as we got this call I was anxious to get to him. But within a few hours of that call, another call came in that said he had passed away. As I stood in a parking lot with my family, I don't remember what else was said or what happen as we ate dinner. My sister who was on the phone as I told her, I could not carry on a normal conversation with. I thought once I cleared my head, this is not okay, this is not fair. My children will never know him and I didn't get to say I love you before he went. Along with my grandfather, my grandmother was loosing the man she had been married to and loved for years. I had not seen her in a long time either. So we packed up my family and went to see my grandmother and uncles. As we drove there and had the chance to see my grandmother, and what she could remember(early stages of Alzheimer's) it was a true blessing. When left for home and I again had this feeling of regret, and unfairness. As my supportive husband handle so much the next few days as we returned for the funeral. My grandfather was a Lt. Col in the army and was buried with full honors and military service. It was a site to see and watch as they paid tribute to a man who served his country so well. As the days since then, I still feel angry when I think about the last few years and lost time and how I didn't get to say goodbye. I also pray daily that I will see him in heaven, the thought that he is not there is heart breaking!
Then the summer continued and my health got worse. I headed to the dr the following week and had to go through a lot of pain for those issues. Then as I was dealing with that, my husbands company had a layoff and he lost his job. I know God had a plan in all this and we are still seeking that plan daily.
Now that we have moved to hang with my parents for now, it has been none stop. With school starting back and having a third grader and kindergarten. We are slooooowly getting settled and trying to stay on track with school.
Tim began a job three weeks ago and we are so blessed that it was open to him. He did however get called to three places in Al. for job interviews. So we made a trip to see Al. and go on job interviews. He received two offers, but it was never clear that God wanted us there at this time. So for now we are in Pauline.
School is going great. Hunter is doing sooo well in kindergarten and has started reading even better. He has made some great friends and his teachers say he is so smart and learning quickly. Also well behaved. Arianna is loving her online third grade program. It is about 10 hour days of work that we are trying to manage. But she is pushing through with only a few whines now and then. I think I am more tired at the end of the day than she is. We are still working hard on reading proficiency. But I know it will come in time. I am just impatient.
Just new to all this news, I have applied to go back to school in Christian studies. I do not have any confirmation when yet, but hope I will get to start some time in Oct.
Well that about gets us up to today and I will try to update more often on more fun stuff!!
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